The last fall

The nights were long

I was trying to hold on

But I was failing and falling

And I was breaking apart

There were screams and tears

And the nightmares played their part

I had tales to tell and pain to share

My eyes bled and dulled

But I couldn't bring myself to care

Because I was all grown up

And crying was for the weak

So my sobs never left the closed doors

And I was afraid

Afraid someone would walk in and spot the wet pillows

Afraid they would call me not man enough

So I wiped the tears and closed my eyes

And asked myself to not be a baby

Asked myself to man up

It hurt, oh so much

But I kept going on because stopping was not a choice

Because I was afraid of falling behind

There were dreams yet to come true

And expectations to fulfill

I had to keep dragging

Fight with all my will

But I fell again

I swear

I swear I tried my best to get up

But I think I fell too hard

To never be one again

I finally broke apart.